Nostalgic regrets

i regret. i love those memories, those sweet memories. but they bring about regret. why? becoz i realised i'm not a good friend keeper. it hurts.

i regret.

i regret not taking the initiative to keep in touch with my primary school friends, especially with Jin Wen and Yan Khee. I regret losing touch with Zhimin and Xiaotian. i regret not holding tighter to my friendships with jos, cy, and janelle, missing the good old times we had. i regret not staying in closer touch with my teacher-friends. i regret not keeping close ties to PHS. i regret not coming for GB more often this year. i regret not keeping in touch with adam side folks, losing my very close friendships with cass and rina. i regret not keeping contact with kristen, and totally losing her. i regret not learning to treasure and appreciate my cell during my lower sec years in passion! min. i regret spoiling my image and 'reputation' this year. i regret being so caught up with myself, with my own 'problems' (which compared to others aint so big) that i've neglected friends. i regret not being a better SP and support and encouragement to my buzz group leader, sis pauline, and fellow SP, andrew, being as little involved as possible, last year. i regret taking a break from SOF, leaving asaph alone there to struggle by himself and with the younger ones, leaving him the responsibility of the team leader and not offering help. i regret that that decision of mine led to a drifting of friendship between me and asaph. i regret not being a better friend and help to andrew last year, especially since we've been in the same cell/section since sec 1, letting him do most of the facilitation of the buzz group, otherwise maybe we would have become better friends, and i wont have that awkward feeling i keep getting everytime we meet. i regret not spending more time with my brother, leaving him now to be addictively rotting in the cyber world. i regret being so self-centered in carrying out my own life that i did not spend time chatting with my brother nor playing with him, especially during that period when he kept asking me, just before he got into his addiction. i regret losing contact with my fun and nice 'gor', my one and only 'gor' i ever had thus far, till now we totally dun communicate at all. i regret losing a friend in samuel when he became an adult leader, letting that status get in our friendship, and like all other friendship, not holding on. i even more regret losing my cousin michelle when she became an adult leader, and the promises we made to each other when we were young that we will be best friends forever are no longer kept, and now i feel there's a big drift between us. i also regret losing the close friendships with my other cousins, joel and amos, as we grew into our teenage years. i also regret not grabbing opportunities to try new things, to get new experiences. i regret not being a better friend to the new friends i make this year. i regret not being a better support as an SP this year to my just-appointed-this-yr cell leader chloe, and the other supporting SP shermaine, especially as we all transited into Z2 leaving our old buzz group and meeting new people. i regret abandoning andrew last year, and chloe, shermaine, asaph this year. i regret being a tough nut (kinda) for my adult leader, not being there to support, letting myself be lost and out, and not sharing.

well, that's all the nostalgic regrets i can think of for now.

but i'm thankful for certain things though.

i'm thankful that my pri sch friend louann took the initiative to keep that group of us in touch, so still quite on okay, comfortable zone with her, jolene, kaili, szehan. i'm thankful that my upper sec group also still quite closed, despite my twinnie being in a different JC, and the rest of us in different classes in NY; that mich, lin,yt,wl we still hang about and still comfortable with each other. i'm thankful for my sis whom we share and chat with, whom i received a lot of encouragement and support from, who has been a great listening ear to me, although i guility feel that i'm not that good a listening ear to her though. xp sorry gal.

okay, that marks the end of nostalgic regrets for now. and i'm feeling better now. haha. dun worry. i'm NOT leaving this post with negative feelings.

instead, i feel great finally, honestly, openly getting it off my heart. and now i'm gonna happily get busy making gifts for people, so i wont have another regret of not fulfilling one of my life's goal, to bless others/be a blessing to others, and bring joy to their lives. =D oh, and to encourage them to. :)

THE END! (time to get to work~! and be a willing and happy factory worker)

sKyLiGhT

phew. last night's skylight party was tiring for me. not physically, like the skilight comm, but emotionally. Going about making new friends, meeting lotsa new people, talking with strangers... well, not really my thing. But yet, i could not just sit there and not go talk with the new frens, esp if they're by themselves, esp if those who brought them are the busy busy comm pple.

Guess that's why God has prepared me to step out of my comfort zone during this kinda situation. Now i understand the 'training' i got by Him putting church frens starting with Bro. Terence and Jean in sec 1 to break me out of my ice, and also through SOF, to teach me how to open up and talk to new people.

Still, i prefer a small group of close friends. That's my more comfortable zone. :D and it usually seems to come better in groups of 4-5, which is the group size i usually hang out in. Be it my pri school group, various sec sch group, or jc group like the night out at the playground.hahah.

anyways, ytd one of the new frens brought back much memories, and regrets. He reminded me a lot of a gor i once had, but was only a short time, and after that, we never talked to each other anymore, just cut off like that. and somehow that guy, even how he behaved, had some similiarities with that once-upon-a-time gor i had. the one and only gor i had. nostalgic regrets. they get at me at times, like just on tuesday, i had them when i passed by my 3rd home, when i took the bus back, just as i have done for four familiar yet quickly passed years of my life. nostalgic regrets. they do get at me at times. and maybe, it's time i throw them out here. maybe it'll help me...

i love my section!!!

was looking at my section photo, the one we took at changi airport... i realised that actually, i really love my section, for the various individuals who are so nice, fun, and supportive, even those who i dun even know personally. With them, i dun have to really worry about frienship problems, motives, etc. With them, i think i relax a bit more than with other 'friends' sometimes. Just sad, that i'm not really close to them. sigh. but i don't regret going for the section outing on sat, though i admit i was a little afraid that i might end up so.
why do i only appreciate things when it's getting real late, and things arent gonna remain the same anymore. i'll miss the graduating pple. i wish i had actually gotten to know you all even better rather than spend so much time this year being so self-absorbed.you pple probably wont know this, especially since you all probably also dun know this place exist. but i really really wanna say

I LOVE MY SECTION!!! and i'll

REALLY REALLY MISS YOU GRADUATING PEOPLE!!!

take care, and God bless.

Connected!

Opened my heart today during service. I refused to listen to the lies of the devil. I refused to evaluate my actions and my heart, whether this is just gonna be a one-time feeling, 'commitment'; whether it's just lip-service, blah blah. I just sang. I just worshipped, open my heart and just be frank to God.

Indeed, in God, there is freedom. Freedom from bondages, freedom from guilt, freedom from shame, freedom from sin, freedom from life's burdens... true freedom that no one else can ever offer, as no one else has it. I'm gonna start searching and pursuing this freedom. I shall not wait and wait in the chains that I have. I shall seek the key to my freedom - Jesus!

I'm gonna start searching the Lord, and I'm gonna find Him. becoz i know He's there waiting for me just to return home, to return to his side. I cant do this alone. I will need God's help, and i'm gonna start learning how to surrender to him instead of rather trusting myself and try to handle situations by myself, which leads me to the valley which i'm in right now. i shall stop struggling in the quicksand, and let my Lord pull me out.

That is more or less what spoke to me during praise and worship.

And by God's beautiful timing, today's message was about CONNECTED aka the Family of God. I feel (i think) God reminding me that I have been trying to be quite a solo christian, not on the surface, but deep down, refusing to share with people, refusing to really open up, even when i'm in desperate need of help; even when i wanted to, i held back.

Moreover, the family of God IS IMPORTANT!! and i know that personally myself, experiencing such a strong reminder just these 3-4 days. A bro and a sis especially have been helping me so much. I'm real thankful for that. i was allowing myself to drift way off, giving in to the fears, doubts, the enemy's lies... but God used them to give me reminders, to give me small wake up calls, to encourage me, to hang on to me so that i will not keep drifting. They held on. They prayed. I know there are other people, like my mom, praying for me too. They helped. They held. Becoz whatever is going on in the spiritual world, also happens down here.

Also, i'm feeling a slight tugging, actually it's more like a thought (which i'm thinking maybe it's God's gentle calling), to go back to the ministry, to go back and serve. No, not the SP status calling, but into the ministry, back to SOF, where although i have physically left since june/july, my heart has never left there, and i've always been looking out for my SOF pple, and often feeling proud of them. Maybe, it's time to go back. But i shall not rush this... my life's not back in place yet, and not even halfway there. there's still issues to settle, issues of which i have not yet meditate and dig it out, issues which i have not yet taken time to do uncover, due to fear. xp

but probably by next year... bros and sis reading this, keep praying for me. it WILL NOT be an easy road.

Every time i edging slowly back, a few days later, the enemy manage to get me to fall even lower than before, causing me to be disheartened, and i pray this will not end up such a case again. This is spiritual warfare, and if ever i need the help of my fellow comrades, it is now! It is this season of time.

happened to randomly come across this song, and was listening to it while i'm typing this post. and it SO HAPPENED to fit this season i'm currently in. http://www.verticalmusic.com/audio/05%20Living%20Rain.mp3

I Will Search

Verse 1
How precious how lovely
Are Your thoughts oh Lord toward me
How truly amazing
Is the grace that You have shown
Oh Majesty I live to see Your face

Chorus
I will search for You
And I will find You
I will find You with all my heart
I will lift my hands to You in worship
And I will worship with all my heart

Verse 2
How gracious relentless
Is the Father's love toward us
Breathtaking the beauty
And the radiance of You
Oh Majesty I live to see Your face
And be transformed
Into Your image

Bridge
Oh Oh I will worship You with all my heart
Oh Oh I will worship You with all my heart

sang this song during service this morning...
Indeed Lord, if I search for you, I will definitely find you, because you never hid yourself from me. Rather, you're standing there waiting for me to find you, waiting for me to come to know you even more intimately than before. Indeed, now i shall strive. Now i shall search. I shall not wait anymore. I shall not wait for things to happen my way. I shall not run away. I shall not hide and shun away. Rather, i shall rise up. I shall seek and search the Lord. I shall seek and discover my identity, in Him and through Him. Indeed, I shall proclaim this song. It may take some time to get there, but instead of worrying how long it'll take, i'm gonna start right now.

shall jot down this day to remember in days, weeks, months, years to come.

started this morning doing TAWG in a different way than my usual 15min-instant devotion. I started listening to gospel music and let it speak to me. wasnt intentional, just wanted to rid my mind of secular music just before i pick up 'Our Daily Bread', heard "This is My Desire" and my spirit sang with it, and somehow i just ended up sitting on my bed listening to 15-20min of gospel songs, where i slowly become more in tuned to God, making my TAWG today more enjoyable than my touch-and-go, 10-15min devotion.

Somehow dint read from 'Our Daily Bread' as usual. Rather, randomly opened the book at Psalm, and twice, I'm back at Psalm 103. Read it. It was a good reminder. Composed a simple song from the verses that spoke to me.

Bless the Lord O My Soul

Bless the Lord O My Soul, Bless the Lord

Let all that's within me bless His name

Bless the Lord O My Soul, Bless the Lord
Let all that's within me bless His name

My soul, do not forget, His benefits

Who forgives all your iniquities

Who redeems your life from destruction

Who crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies

The Lord is merciful and gracious

Slow to anger, and abounding in mercy

As far as the east is from the west

So far has He removed our transgressions from us

Bless the Lord O My Soul, Bless the Lord
Let all that's within me bless His name

Bless the Lord O My Soul, Bless the Lord
Let all that's within me bless His name

Would have loved to extend the time even further, although i already extended by extra 15min, but gotta go meet pri sch mates for brunch.

1 fried carrot cake, 4 person shared, while waiting for the 5th person to come. haha. in the end, this 4 of us shared 1 plate fried carrot cake & 8 ju kueh, plus iced milo each except for 1 who went for plain hot water... in total for brunch. the 5th one bought a plate of fried carrot cake for herself. haha. i like this pic. quite nice. =)

then afternoon talking quite with fern.

evening.. went down to Changi Airport for section gathering (church, zone 2, gals cum guys). Glad the first person i met isnt someone who's not so familiar, which happened to be Andrew and then met Chloe not too long later.

Then very very fun!! Brought chloe go see the woodblock print, got her, and some others in the section excited. In the end, i end up being excited and seeing some creative strangers at work, felt motivated.... and TADA!!!

My masterpiece of which i'm proud of.

My section, all squeezed into that BIG lift in Terminal 3!! erm.. all i think 22 of us. yup yup.

had a great time wif them, quite. in the beginning worried i might go into one of those 'modes' again. but i guess bringing taboo was a good idea. It was the main ice-breaker for me, helping me break out solo-ist mode, which i nearly fell into. But i guess i shouldnt had worried. With this group, it's kinda hard. XD

sigh. but tonight also brings back lots of memories. Whether it's the woodblock print, whether it was popeye where we ate, whether it was the viewing gallery at T3, and lots of other factors i shall not mention as not to give myself away... It brought back quite a number of nice but nostalgic memories, memories of friendships i'll miss, memories of good times i will dearly miss. It especially reminded me of a particular someone. But sometimes keeping friends is not only for us to decide. There's a limit of the effort we can put into friendships i guess.I'll miss that friend, and i have a bad feeling that T3 will keep reminding me of that friend of mine. oh well, the airport there's the arrival hall and the departure hall. In life, there's the arrival of people into your life, and the departure of others. :)

Avenue Q and today's adventure...

avenue q.. was GREAT!! very funny, and acted real well. good job pple!!

start of today's adventure:
went to my 9am cell; left early 10.07am to proceed to meet daniel and edna; reached PLMGSS at 1030am (super early); PLMC(youth) service at 11am; headed down to cityhall to suppossedly meet bliss and farz at 1.45pm; ended up met bliss at 1.15pm & dint meet farz; changed plan & headed down to suntec to meet sy & queen to eat lunch.

the slightly more interesting part of the adventure..
PIZZA HUT @ SUNTEC CITY...

WARNING!!! DONT GO THERE!!!
for a very very important reason to note.. their customer service is SUPERB LOUSY!!!
sorry. maybe i'm just superb hungry.. and time was limited for us too.. whatever the case, i dun like their service there.. it was extremely lousy and left me somewhat irritated and to a certain extent, angry. haha

1. no one attended to us as we waited for seats, when halve the tables had no customers, and they were cleared too (no remaining used plates..).

2. when we decided to go in ourselves and find a seat, THEN they noticed us, so they can stop us and ask us to wait

3. they said the pizza will arrive 15-20min.. it came 28MIN later!! i was already threatening of leaving should the food not arrive on time.

4. i was getting impatient and we're really tight of time.. i mean we ordered at 2pm, we had a show to catch at 3pm, and we wanted to get seated by 2.45pm... so i signalled a waitress, and asked her firmly but politely where's our pizza as we are rushing for time. she said she'll help me check. i observed her.. she dint even help us check, proceeding immediately to do other stuffs.

5. last but not least.. EVEN THE BILL ALSO GOT PROB!!! paid the bill.. had to wait at least 5MIN for the $1.50 change. got impatient as it was already 2.43pm. signalled the waiter, asked for our change, explaining tat we're rushing for time. he dint return with our change

6. so, i went to collect the change personally.. IT WAS ON THE COUNTER THE WHOLE TIME!!!! and the waitress who gave us our bill refuses to give us nor did the waiter whom we hurried but he dint do anything. boy was i mad!!!

yups. so tat's more or less why i dislike pizzehut @ suntec.

Interesting part of the journey:
as we were running late.. WE RAN ALL THE WAY FROM SUNTEC CITY TO ESPLANADE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously.
and surprisingly.. dan ran faster and had better stamina than me, bliss, sy, queen. haha.

AVENUE Q!!!!!!!!! (okays.. i'm quite tired.. so i'll make this short.)
it was real good! 1st time i'm really watching a puppet show up front.
for those who heard it was crude, it's not too bad lah, dun really have a lot of vulgarities.
those who heard there was puppet sex, yes there was.

it was... ... ... ...
very funny
very well acted
songs are good
though i wont say whether i agree wif all or them or not
though a couple of words at times were hard to catch
very good coordination
very interesting plot
very creative
like the way they covered social issues; it was done in an interesting yet somewhat precise way
though i wasnt comfortable with the way they used the reference of jesus christ so casually.. not directly offensive, but still...

it was very good becoz the people who handles the individual puppets put in facial expression and body experessions very well. it's as if the characters were the person themselves, not the puppets they're holding. and well.. it as PLAIN GOOD!!! haha.. i dunno how to describe liao. just go watch, ONLY IF you can watch with a clear mind, and if you're considerably mentally mature enough to filter through the 'information' given. XD of which, i think i can, and i still think i did.

the most uncomfortable part of it is the making love scene where you see the two puppets making love. weird. at certain times they looked more like they were fighting as the puppets were like being tossed quite violently.. but since i know not much about making love itself, *shrugs*

the other uncomfortable part is the very casual usage of reference of jesus christ, and how 'the internet is for porn' stated and emphasised, which saddens my heart, as it is true for many pple nowadays, esp youths, showing a prob of society today.

i like the song about "everyone's a little bit racist". there's truth to it too. although there are some pple, like me, who dont think we're racist, becoz we accept people easily, regardless of race, language, or religion (xp), i'm sure at times, due to generalisation, in the public we may like shun pple, get suspicious of pple, etc. when we see someone from a particular race. haha.

well...
after Avenue Q:
dine wif 14 other 0836-ians at Thai Express, where i just ordered an Avocado milkshake as i was still quite full over the pizza for lunch; walked a little, contemplating where to hang out next; went to arcade; me n bliss contentedly ourselves with just watching them.. where the girls are always screaming in their games, and aloy enjoyed his safari game of catching animals.

8.15pm - i left the group to go home, as dad wants me back by 9pm.
rached home 9.15pm.. marking the END OF JOURNEY!!

While waiting for yd and aloy... the gals decided to try out some smoking

THAI EXPRESS!

ARCADE

Pleasant relaxing Sunday

glad clar. and dan (classmates) came on sunday, joining me for WWW (ignyte worship experience) - Worship Works Wonders. hope they received something from God, though we dint really share/talk about service after that.

was interesting, first time walk from TCC down to SingPost, and first time i sit bus so ganchiong. becoz sitting bus 135 with dan back home, then we both never sit this bus this direction before... from SingPost seemed to be heading correct direction, towards Serangoon, but it went into housing estates just before TCC, going a few small halve loops, turning different directions, scaring me a little.. like we take wrong bus.. haha. quite fun. oh well, clar cldnt even stay for lunch. so me and dan ate, and talked.. about.. school? classmates? after all, there's only 2 common topics we have.. and since the other is seldom heard from him, then this one lor. haha. XD

anyways, sunday was great and relaxed day, so much so that i DINT EVEN TOUCHED THE COMPUTER AT ALL!!!! hahaha. ate and chat over lunch wif dan till 2.45pm. after going round and round in circles, and changed buses twice, i finally reached home at 3.50pm; caught my family watching indiana jones (without me!!!), watched tat last halve; continue reading "The Negotiator" by Dee Henderson, went cycling to Lower Pierce Reservoir to watch sunset (of which my bro insisted i took photo of the sky every 1min as the sun set;went gran's house for dinner and watched tele there/chat with cousins joel,amos. left gran house at 9.45pm, cycled home, bathe. superb tired.. wanted to go online but changed mind.. ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........................

haha.


P.S. liked what one of my church fren said. she asked how was the vietnam trip. i said it was very relaxing and enjoyable. then she answered, ya i can tell... your face looks so much more relaxed...
haha. dunno true or not. =D

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WWW
Worship Works Wonders
1. Who We Worship
2. We Worship Wholeheartedly

Rain rain go away..

Wheee..... promos are over!!!! haha.. and today's Children's day!! poor primary school kids. they must have feel cheated of their holiday since children's day clashes with hari raya puasa. haha.. too bad for them. XD

well, wanna talk about the 2 songs i put on sunday. went for service on sunday. dint expect anything. just another service that'll pass. but I guess God's really working at my heart once again, esp since i then was going to have no more excuses left of procrastinating my confrontation with myself and God, which i promised to do after promos, and soul-searching. XP

it's been some time since i really gone down to the altars, to praise and worship God, with the joy that birthed from within. hmmm.. maybe for more than 1.5 yr?? But somehow, my spirit inside me that day couldnt help jumping and praising God. I feel just so reconnected back to God again. =)
even when we went to more intense worship, i could feel God working at my heart. the cold stone heart, of which has closed many doors, to God and to others..

those 2 songs i posted, 'To Know Your Name' and 'Come Holy Spirit' really just spoke to me. the words were jumping out at me, as i sang this two familiar songs, esp the words, of which i coloured them yellow in my posts. Indeed, this stubborn girl who has by her pride ran away from her Father, and let her pride and stubborness stopped her from returning to the Father's love and embrace.. but rather eat pig pods, is starting to remember her identity in her Father, that as she explores and search for her identity, she's slowly returning home, where she'll feel whole again.


well, had a good day on mon, whacking after my last paper, 2hrs. then 2 pals came over to my house.. had fun! Let me paint the pic.. hmm... one playing Nintendo DS on the host's bed, another playing neopets on the host's laptop, and the host.. lying on the floor, staring at the ceiling, in an air-conditioned room. haha.

play, play, eat, eat, nap... ZZZZZzzzz....



and played with meow frens below... even got to see a kitten suckling its mom.

well, spend the whole of ytd composing a melody for my 'bro's' song lyrics.. 'Keeps Raining Without You'. wasnt easy.. but well, i'm starting to really fall in love with tat song! XD

okay, if i got the courage, i'll put it here one day... one day... XP dun like my recorded voice.. very paiseh. haha. and when i wanted to re-record today, just as i was about to reach the last chorus.. SNAP!! went my guitar string. X( oh wells.

haha, spend most of today packing for friday's vietnam trip. sorry to pangseh my friends who are still taking exams.. but i need tat break away from spore instead of rotting away at home.. and hopefully, i'll be able to do more soul-searching there.. yups. praying and hoping that the rainy season will be over soon.. for it keeps raining without Him.

Keeps Raining Without You
Lyrics by Fabian

Sometimes I feel like I just wanna give up,
Throw in the towel, end it all,
In this big-big world, I feel just so small,
Can you help me just not to fall?

There's just this empty hole in my bleeding heart,
Yearning for you ever since we were apart.
Tried many times to deny it but I realised it's true,
It keeps raining without you.

I thought that you were too tough to bother,
You didn't even seem to care,
In this big-big world, you are everywhere,
But can you let me just know you are there?

Cause..

There's just this empty hole in my bleeding heart,
Yearning for you ever since we were apart.
Tried many times to deny it but I realised it's true,
It keeps raining without you.
[repeat]

Bridge: (God says...)
I was there, even though I wasn't there for you to see,
I was there, just wanted you to know I cared for thee,
Now I'll fill this hole in your bleeding heart,
From my presence you'll never depart,
I promise I will...
Only if you’ll let me...

There was this empty hole in my bleeding heart,
Yearning for you ever since we were apart.
Tried many times to deny it but I know now it's true,
It kept raining without you.

Finally, it has stopped raining

It's been long since i've last stepped here, coz of last week's mid year exams, and previous week, finally stopped myself and started studying.

These while lots of things have been happening, but i shallnt write them all down. Somehow this week dont feel so lost and drunk as compared to the first 3 weeks of holidays and before that. hmmm... so maybe studying helps. haha. oh, and finally picking up doing morning devotions again, using our daily bread, though only a very short while. I wont push, i'll go at a slow but steady pace, back to basics, and from basics, may i discover my roots in God again, and from there grow.

oh. but this sunday and the previous sunday was simply GREAT!! After 2 weekends of not being in TCC, going back to IGNYTE last week was great! somehow my spirit was open once again, and my self-consciousness has decreased much compared to the previous times of going to IGNYTE. I was able to worship God, with joy from my heart, without being distracted, but feeling the joy in my heart as i sing praises and worship God. Oh. and this two weeks, i jumped during praise and worship. It was as if the burdens of my heart has lifted, lifting off the chains that had bounded my feet to the ground. i enjoy the worship so. Praise God.

Seems like music really lifts up soul, lifts my spirit. last week, i was packing the song CDs that i have at home, and from there, started to on the CD player and listen to songs. The Authentic Worship collection - Country Worship, is really FABULOUS!!!! It chases away my bad mood, my sian mood, even help me to prep me for studying. Well, so last sunday, i was listening to country music while i travelled to church, and during the break between cell and service, i was also listening to songs, and somehow, church was great! that day, which for me personally, so long havent like that liao. Then today, i brought my baby guitar and before cell, was playing the guitar, worshipping God.

Guess there's some kind of power in music. I think music when it was created in this world, somehow maybe there's a link with our spirit. I was reading a newspaper article last month. The writer was writing about why people nowadays like to listen to sad songs. Sad people listen to sad songs, and get sadder, more depressed. Happy people listen to sad songs, and the next minute, they lose the happiness. The writer couldnt understand why people like listening to sad songs. I understand why, well, sort of. When one is down, somehow we'll turn to sad songs, because our mood allow us to identify closely with the mood of the song. However, like the writer said, we actually get moodier after that.

Well, so songs may really have something to do with our spirit. It influences our spirit; it affects our spirit. So, maybe everyone should listen to more joyful/uplifting music, and perhaps the world will change to be a happier place to live in, where you walk down the streets, you'll see more smiles than frowns. We should avoid music that talks about suicide, murder, anger, hatred, rebellion, drugs, sex, alcohol... becoz though we may say and believe that we are strong enough to repel and not get influenced. But things in the spiritual realm is not to play with, becoz it's a sector of our life that we can NEVER control.

Music. No wonder the society has changed so much as the types of songs available, the genre of songs, the culture of songs, have changed so much in the recent years. Music. Now, i understand. Especially if really, music is somewhat connected to our spirit. Music, yes music.
It is said that Satan, before his downfall, was one of the angels in heaven, and he was the angel of music. Thus, even after his downfall, being so specialised in the music arena, being a professional here, he uses it to his advantage - to teach young kids, and sometimes maybe even the youths and adults, wrong moral values; to make them more depressed, sad, and anything but happy; to influence their midsets; to teach them to rebel against their parents and other authorities; to teach them to love sin and despise kindness and goodness as weaknesses; to see un-marital sex as acceptable and the 'in'/common/normal thing to do; to tell people that violence is the only way, and there's no wrong to it... Music. Lucifer's tool. No wonder.

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Music, worship music, worshipping Yahweh Jehovah, has chased away the rain clouds. Finally it has stopped raining, even if it's just for a while. The rain has stopped. I'm not alone in the rain. The sky is blue, though the smell of rain/the stench of a storm is still around.