The Glorious day is here!!!

HURRAY! HALLELUJAH!! THE GLORIOUS DAY OF REJOICING IS HERE!!!

I've been redeemed! I've been set free! I've surrendered it all! I've returned!! The rain has stopped! I'm no longer alone! I'm home, back to my beloved's side! I'm back to my Father's arms, for good! I HAVE OVERCOMED!!!!

yeah!

back from Ignyte SURGE camp! God has spoken. God has redeemed me. I've FINALLY let go and get a grip on God. The chains have been broken. I've stopped struggling. I've stopped trying by myself. I'm letting God take over. I've been pulled out of the quicksand that used to threatened to eat me up whole. I'm filled with joy. I'm filled with blessed assurance. I'm filled with a renewed passsion, commitment, and determination to get out of the old ways, and be faithful to the Lord, my God, and to persevere even through challenges or mundanity, never letting go.

Today is the day that the Lord has made, and I will rejoice and be glad in it! God has never gave me up. God was always waiting for me. God has long forgiven me, even before i came back to Him.

Today is the day
I'm casting my cares aside
I'm leaving my past behind
I'm setting my heart and mind on You
Jesus

I'm reaching my hand to Yours
Believing there's so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good
Is good

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm trusting in what You say
Today is the day.
Today is the day.

I'm putting my fears aside
I'm leaving my doubts behind
I'm giving my hopes and dreams to You
Jesus

I'm reaching my hand to Yours
Believing there's so much more
Knowing that all You have in store for me is good
Is good

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm trusting in what You say
Today is the day.
Today is the day.

I will stand upon Your truth.
(I will stand upon Your truth)
And all my days I'll live for You
(And all my days I'll live for You)

Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won't worry about tomorroww
I'm giving you my fears and sorrows
Where you lead me I will follow
I'm trusting in what you say
Today is the day
Today is the day


There stood a child, weighed down by the numerous heavy chains on her back, all around her, so heavy that she is struggling under them. She could hardly move, under all those weight. She's so tired, so exhausted, but she can't break free. Then came the sword. Her Father used His powerful sword and were slashing at the chains on her. Chains broke, one after the other. The chain of sorrow, the chain of guilt, the chain of shame, the chain of fear, the chain of doubt, the chain of the devil's lies, the chain of despair, the chains of various sins, the chain of loneliness, the chain of uselessness, the chain of 'nobody', and more... The chains were all broken. But she stood there, still hunched, still bend low, for the weight of the chains have been there for so long that she simply had no strength to stand up straight and face her Father. But the Father loved her too much to just leave her there. He bend down, took her in His arms and carried her. In His embrace, she was strengthened. She was set free! She is now back into her Father's arms of love.

RACHEL HAS RETURNED TO HER PREVIOUS BLOG!!!
SHE IS NO LONGER GONNA BE HERE ANYMORE BECOZ SHE IS NO LONGER ALONE IN THE RAIN!!!
SHE'S BACK TO HER BELOVED'S EMBRACE AND PRESENCE, PERMANENTLY!!!

FIND HER AT... http://ignite4him.blogspot.com/

I Will Search

Verse 1
How precious how lovely
Are Your thoughts oh Lord toward me
How truly amazing
Is the grace that You have shown
Oh Majesty I live to see Your face

Chorus
I will search for You
And I will find You
I will find You with all my heart
I will lift my hands to You in worship
And I will worship with all my heart

Verse 2
How gracious relentless
Is the Father's love toward us
Breathtaking the beauty
And the radiance of You
Oh Majesty I live to see Your face
And be transformed
Into Your image

Bridge
Oh Oh I will worship You with all my heart
Oh Oh I will worship You with all my heart

sang this song during service this morning...
Indeed Lord, if I search for you, I will definitely find you, because you never hid yourself from me. Rather, you're standing there waiting for me to find you, waiting for me to come to know you even more intimately than before. Indeed, now i shall strive. Now i shall search. I shall not wait anymore. I shall not wait for things to happen my way. I shall not run away. I shall not hide and shun away. Rather, i shall rise up. I shall seek and search the Lord. I shall seek and discover my identity, in Him and through Him. Indeed, I shall proclaim this song. It may take some time to get there, but instead of worrying how long it'll take, i'm gonna start right now.

We will Stand

You're my brother, you're my sister
So take me by the hand
Together we will work
Until He comes

There's no foe that can defeat us
When we're walking side by side
As long as there is love
We will stand


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aN. was singing this song earlier at the terminal, reminding me of it, and somehow, i was attracted to the lyrics.

Indeed. If brothers and sisters in Christ walk together, work together, encourage one another, be there for one another, spur each other on, embrace each other in love, there's NO FOE that can defeat us. Just like how i've been blessed by a bro and sis past few days in one of the most intense part of my struggles this year... and thinking back, the few other bros and sis who helped me along too. WE DO NEED EACH OTHER! So brothers and sisters, let's 'hold hands' and be there for each other. No one is gonna walk life's journey alone.

Thank you Lord for my brothers and sisters. Thank you dear brothers and sisters, the different individuals that have helped me on life's journey.
Arigoto gozaimasu. Terimakaseh. Sparsibas. Kob-khun-ka. Xie Xie. Merci.

shall jot down this day to remember in days, weeks, months, years to come.

started this morning doing TAWG in a different way than my usual 15min-instant devotion. I started listening to gospel music and let it speak to me. wasnt intentional, just wanted to rid my mind of secular music just before i pick up 'Our Daily Bread', heard "This is My Desire" and my spirit sang with it, and somehow i just ended up sitting on my bed listening to 15-20min of gospel songs, where i slowly become more in tuned to God, making my TAWG today more enjoyable than my touch-and-go, 10-15min devotion.

Somehow dint read from 'Our Daily Bread' as usual. Rather, randomly opened the book at Psalm, and twice, I'm back at Psalm 103. Read it. It was a good reminder. Composed a simple song from the verses that spoke to me.

Bless the Lord O My Soul

Bless the Lord O My Soul, Bless the Lord

Let all that's within me bless His name

Bless the Lord O My Soul, Bless the Lord
Let all that's within me bless His name

My soul, do not forget, His benefits

Who forgives all your iniquities

Who redeems your life from destruction

Who crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies

The Lord is merciful and gracious

Slow to anger, and abounding in mercy

As far as the east is from the west

So far has He removed our transgressions from us

Bless the Lord O My Soul, Bless the Lord
Let all that's within me bless His name

Bless the Lord O My Soul, Bless the Lord
Let all that's within me bless His name

Would have loved to extend the time even further, although i already extended by extra 15min, but gotta go meet pri sch mates for brunch.

1 fried carrot cake, 4 person shared, while waiting for the 5th person to come. haha. in the end, this 4 of us shared 1 plate fried carrot cake & 8 ju kueh, plus iced milo each except for 1 who went for plain hot water... in total for brunch. the 5th one bought a plate of fried carrot cake for herself. haha. i like this pic. quite nice. =)

then afternoon talking quite with fern.

evening.. went down to Changi Airport for section gathering (church, zone 2, gals cum guys). Glad the first person i met isnt someone who's not so familiar, which happened to be Andrew and then met Chloe not too long later.

Then very very fun!! Brought chloe go see the woodblock print, got her, and some others in the section excited. In the end, i end up being excited and seeing some creative strangers at work, felt motivated.... and TADA!!!

My masterpiece of which i'm proud of.

My section, all squeezed into that BIG lift in Terminal 3!! erm.. all i think 22 of us. yup yup.

had a great time wif them, quite. in the beginning worried i might go into one of those 'modes' again. but i guess bringing taboo was a good idea. It was the main ice-breaker for me, helping me break out solo-ist mode, which i nearly fell into. But i guess i shouldnt had worried. With this group, it's kinda hard. XD

sigh. but tonight also brings back lots of memories. Whether it's the woodblock print, whether it was popeye where we ate, whether it was the viewing gallery at T3, and lots of other factors i shall not mention as not to give myself away... It brought back quite a number of nice but nostalgic memories, memories of friendships i'll miss, memories of good times i will dearly miss. It especially reminded me of a particular someone. But sometimes keeping friends is not only for us to decide. There's a limit of the effort we can put into friendships i guess.I'll miss that friend, and i have a bad feeling that T3 will keep reminding me of that friend of mine. oh well, the airport there's the arrival hall and the departure hall. In life, there's the arrival of people into your life, and the departure of others. :)

There's a fine fine line [Avenue Q]

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PTFI9sQdpGo

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"Indeed there's a fine fine line between:
a lover and a friend
reality and pretend
a fairytale and a lie
being together and not
what I wanted and what I got
what i heard people wanted and what they got
(and definitely) love and a waste of time

It's time I move on. I should not have held onto any more feelings for you. I should not have waited for you, hoping you'll noticed me. I should not have hoped that we'll really become strong, good, close friends, when i knew that it would be highly unlikely. I should not have clinged on to false hope. It's time i distinguished between reality and pretense. It's time I realised that I should not be clinging on to such 'love' when it is just a waste of time and my emotions.

Indeed, I don't have time to waste on you anymore. For my own sanity, I got to close the door of my heart and walk away. I don't think we can ever be that close friends again. I don't even think you realised that our friendship has detoriated, as you know I feared. I'm going to walk away now. If it ends up that we become just acquaintances, not even friends anymore, I won't be surprised. I'm sorry. I've tried. This is too tiring. It's really a fine fine line between love and a waste of time, and it is time I distinguish where am I. Today is the day. Farewell."

--Fern--

Even When Friends Forsake

Even When Friends Forsake
Lyrics by Fabian Ng

A little boy of sorrow, ran away from the arms of love,
Into this foolish world, and it left him drained.
Yet he still runs away, time and time again,
Never ending sorrow, everlasting pain.

What must it take to bring him back to this house again?
Will he be lost in his pain and be buried in his shame?
The little child so lost and weary, yet his earthly pride,
Carries him through the day even when friends forsake.

That little lad of sorrow, wandering through the streets,
Prodigal expenditures on earthly beings, false friends fall asleep.
Yet one little day it was over, and his world disappeared,
Left him with a needle and thread, a broken heart to mend

What must it take to bring him back to this house again?
Will he be lost in his pain and be buried in his shame?
The little child so lost and weary, yet his earthly pride,
Carries him through the day even when friends forsake.

Bridge:
He wanders lost, day by day, night by night,
He fed the swines of misery, will he go down in history,
As a lad who ran away from the arms of love?
When friends forsake.

The little man of sorrow, ran from freedom to captivity,
Perhaps he'd learnt his lesson, now he's on road way home,
Out of the door stepped his Father, with arms open wide,
Embracing his dear child, now back at his side,

And he said,

"I'm just so happy that now you're back in this house again.
Home is where the pain is lost and buried is the shame.
Oh little child so lost and weary, welcome back tonight,
I'll be with you in the day even when friends forsake."

WARNING!!! it's superb RAW. so pls beware.

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Lord, i'm like that foolish little boy. Oh. When will i be back in your house again? When will i let myself return home to you? This battle is tiring. Prob is i still havent learnt my lesson. I'm afraid that this little lost and weary child here will continue to head downhill instead of back up to you.

Rain rain go away..

Wheee..... promos are over!!!! haha.. and today's Children's day!! poor primary school kids. they must have feel cheated of their holiday since children's day clashes with hari raya puasa. haha.. too bad for them. XD

well, wanna talk about the 2 songs i put on sunday. went for service on sunday. dint expect anything. just another service that'll pass. but I guess God's really working at my heart once again, esp since i then was going to have no more excuses left of procrastinating my confrontation with myself and God, which i promised to do after promos, and soul-searching. XP

it's been some time since i really gone down to the altars, to praise and worship God, with the joy that birthed from within. hmmm.. maybe for more than 1.5 yr?? But somehow, my spirit inside me that day couldnt help jumping and praising God. I feel just so reconnected back to God again. =)
even when we went to more intense worship, i could feel God working at my heart. the cold stone heart, of which has closed many doors, to God and to others..

those 2 songs i posted, 'To Know Your Name' and 'Come Holy Spirit' really just spoke to me. the words were jumping out at me, as i sang this two familiar songs, esp the words, of which i coloured them yellow in my posts. Indeed, this stubborn girl who has by her pride ran away from her Father, and let her pride and stubborness stopped her from returning to the Father's love and embrace.. but rather eat pig pods, is starting to remember her identity in her Father, that as she explores and search for her identity, she's slowly returning home, where she'll feel whole again.


well, had a good day on mon, whacking after my last paper, 2hrs. then 2 pals came over to my house.. had fun! Let me paint the pic.. hmm... one playing Nintendo DS on the host's bed, another playing neopets on the host's laptop, and the host.. lying on the floor, staring at the ceiling, in an air-conditioned room. haha.

play, play, eat, eat, nap... ZZZZZzzzz....



and played with meow frens below... even got to see a kitten suckling its mom.

well, spend the whole of ytd composing a melody for my 'bro's' song lyrics.. 'Keeps Raining Without You'. wasnt easy.. but well, i'm starting to really fall in love with tat song! XD

okay, if i got the courage, i'll put it here one day... one day... XP dun like my recorded voice.. very paiseh. haha. and when i wanted to re-record today, just as i was about to reach the last chorus.. SNAP!! went my guitar string. X( oh wells.

haha, spend most of today packing for friday's vietnam trip. sorry to pangseh my friends who are still taking exams.. but i need tat break away from spore instead of rotting away at home.. and hopefully, i'll be able to do more soul-searching there.. yups. praying and hoping that the rainy season will be over soon.. for it keeps raining without Him.

Keeps Raining Without You
Lyrics by Fabian

Sometimes I feel like I just wanna give up,
Throw in the towel, end it all,
In this big-big world, I feel just so small,
Can you help me just not to fall?

There's just this empty hole in my bleeding heart,
Yearning for you ever since we were apart.
Tried many times to deny it but I realised it's true,
It keeps raining without you.

I thought that you were too tough to bother,
You didn't even seem to care,
In this big-big world, you are everywhere,
But can you let me just know you are there?

Cause..

There's just this empty hole in my bleeding heart,
Yearning for you ever since we were apart.
Tried many times to deny it but I realised it's true,
It keeps raining without you.
[repeat]

Bridge: (God says...)
I was there, even though I wasn't there for you to see,
I was there, just wanted you to know I cared for thee,
Now I'll fill this hole in your bleeding heart,
From my presence you'll never depart,
I promise I will...
Only if you’ll let me...

There was this empty hole in my bleeding heart,
Yearning for you ever since we were apart.
Tried many times to deny it but I know now it's true,
It kept raining without you.

Come Holy Spirit

Come Holy Spirit
fall on me now
I need your anoiting
come in your power

I love you Holy Spirit
You're captivating my soul
And everyday
I grow to love you more

[chorus]
I'm reaching for your heart
You hold my life in your hand
Drawing me closer to you
I feel your power renew
Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see you face to face
I worship you in spirit and in truth

To know Your Name

By Hillsong

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems,
forgiven i’m alive, restored set free.
your majesty resides inside of me,
forever i believe.
forever i believe.

Arrested by your truth and righteousness
your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
convicted by your spirit, led by your word
your love will never fail
your love will never fail

[chorus]
'Cause i know you gave, the world your only son for us to
know your name, to live within the saviours love
and he took my place, knowing he’d be crucified
and you loved.. you loved, a people undeserving!

The Touch of the Master's Hand

Well, it was battered and scarred
And the auctioneer felt
It was hardly worth his while
To waste much time on the old violin
But he held it up with a smile
Well it sure ain't much
But it's all we got left
I guess we ought to sell it too
Oh, Now who'll start the bid on this old violin
Just one more and we'll be through

And then he cried
One, give me one dollar
Who'll make it two
Only two dollars
Who'll make it three
Three dollars twice
Now that's a good price
But who's got a bid for me
Raise up your hand now
Don't wait any longer
The auction's about to end
Who's got four
Just one dollar more
To bid on this old violin

Well the air was hot
And the people stood around
As the sun was setting low
From the back of the crowd a gray-haired man
Came forward, picked up the bow
He wiped the dust from the old violin
Then he tightened up the strings
Then he played out a melody pure and sweet
Sweeter than the angels sing

And then the music stopped
And the auctioneer with a voice that was quiet and low
He said
What am I bid for this old violin
Then he held it up with a bow

(Chorus)
Then he cried out
One, give me one thousand
Who'll make it two
Only two thousand
Who'll make it three
Three thousand twice
You know, that's a good price
Come on, who's got a bid for me
The people cried out
What made the change
We don't understand
Then the auctioneer stopped
And he said with a smile
It was the touch of the master's hand

Now you know
Many a man with a life out of tune
Is battered and scarred with sin
And he's auctioned cheap to a thankless world
Much like that old violin
Then the master comes and that foolish crowd
They never understand
The worth of a soul
And the change that is wrought
Just by one touch of the Master's hand

(Chorus)

His Strength is perfect

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength
But sometimes I wonder what he can do for me
No great success to show
No glory of my own
yet in my weakness he is there to let me know

(chorus)
His strength is perfect when our strength is gone
He'll carry us when we can't carry on
Raised in his power the weak becomes strong
His strength is perfect
His strenght is perfect

We can only know tht power that he holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His strength it must begin
When ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again

(chorus)
(chorus)

song that spoke to me, and comforted me especially today, when i was asking God for guidence, and was feeling kinda down/stress today.

Till I see You

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

add-on to 钱不够用2:

5 Loaves and 2 Fishes
A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all"

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

Lord, take the little that i have and do with it as you will. Here am i, use me to do your will. Use me if you would to be your support and to pass your love to others around me...
Just so happened, ed. shared with me this song, and i read/heard it yesterday...


Teach me to love
composed by King Rachel, 26th August 2008

teach me to love as thou does love
and let the whole world know
that jesus christ lives in my heart
his glorious light to show
(X2)

teach me to love them
teach me to love your people
let me bring your love to the world
teach me to love them
teach me to love those out there
there's a world in need of love
the world's in need of love for you

use me to love them
use me to love your people
use me to share your love around
use me to love them
use me to love your people
here i am, use me

there's a world in need of love
many people so lost out there
those lonely souls, forsaken, it seems
but your love can pick them up
can make them whole again
use me to spread your love around.

teach me to love them
teach me to love your people
how can i bear to see this world go to waste
teach me to love them
teach me to love your people
pouring out your love into the land

for you love them
you don't want to see them like this
so pour out your love

may upload the audio soon... if i can convince myself to let others hear my raw voice... XD

I would Die for you

And I know that I can find You here
'Cause you promised me You'll always be there
Times like these, it's hard to see
But somehow I have a peace, YOu're near
And I pray that You will use my life
In whatever way YOur name is glorified
Even if surrendering
Means leaving everything behind

My life has never been this clear
Now I know the reason why I'm here
You never kow why You're alive
Until you know what you would die for
I would die for You

And I know I don't have much to give
But i promise YOu I will give YOu all there is
Can I possibly do less
When through YOur own death i live?

No greater love is found
Than of those who lay their own lives down
As sure as I live and breathe
Now I know what it means to be free

I want to let Jesus love me

I want to let Jesus love me
Put His arms around me
Touch my eyes so I can see
That I am beautiful

I want to let Jesus love me
Put His arms around me
Lift me high so I can see
The beauty of the Lord

Hallelujah

Captured by your Beauty
Broken at your Feet
Desperate for a Touch
Of you My Lord

Changed by your Glory
Overwhelmed by Grace
Lord I know I'll never be the same
Again

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
For all you have done
Hallelujah

For as long as I have breath
My lips will glorify
I will bring
Praise unto your Name

You laid aside your Majesty

You laid aside you majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the Hands
Of those you have created

You took all my guilt and shame
When you died and rose again
Now today you reign
In heaven and earth exalted


I really want to worship you my Lord
You have won my heart and I am Yours
Forever and ever
I will love you

You are the only one who died for me
Gave your life to set me free
So I lift my voice to you
In adoration

"It Will be Me" from Brother Bear 2

It Will Be Me Lyrics