sKyLiGhT

phew. last night's skylight party was tiring for me. not physically, like the skilight comm, but emotionally. Going about making new friends, meeting lotsa new people, talking with strangers... well, not really my thing. But yet, i could not just sit there and not go talk with the new frens, esp if they're by themselves, esp if those who brought them are the busy busy comm pple.

Guess that's why God has prepared me to step out of my comfort zone during this kinda situation. Now i understand the 'training' i got by Him putting church frens starting with Bro. Terence and Jean in sec 1 to break me out of my ice, and also through SOF, to teach me how to open up and talk to new people.

Still, i prefer a small group of close friends. That's my more comfortable zone. :D and it usually seems to come better in groups of 4-5, which is the group size i usually hang out in. Be it my pri school group, various sec sch group, or jc group like the night out at the playground.hahah.

anyways, ytd one of the new frens brought back much memories, and regrets. He reminded me a lot of a gor i once had, but was only a short time, and after that, we never talked to each other anymore, just cut off like that. and somehow that guy, even how he behaved, had some similiarities with that once-upon-a-time gor i had. the one and only gor i had. nostalgic regrets. they get at me at times, like just on tuesday, i had them when i passed by my 3rd home, when i took the bus back, just as i have done for four familiar yet quickly passed years of my life. nostalgic regrets. they do get at me at times. and maybe, it's time i throw them out here. maybe it'll help me...