the end

as i was bathing just now, i thot of what i wanted to say, wanted to write... the "farewell speech". but now tat i'm staring at lappie, everything is gone. so i will most probably make this short and sweet.

this is the end. i wasted so much effort and time to make this blog and customise it, having switched from ignite4him.blogspot.com becoz that God was meant not for me, but for God, to honour Him and to share with people some of the great things He does. but in the recent months, tat changed, thus i change blog as my posts are no longer on the original objective.anyway, i shall stop blogging. what's the use anyway? how much of my life would i allow myself to write.

like someone says who would care about your life. no one reads my blog in the first place... wait. tat's an understatement. there are pple who read my blog, namely edna and lin.

okay. i dun feel like blogging anymore. all i'll say now is...
after thinking through, i think i will be going into isolation policy as i have long intended and considered already.

sorry people for not being a good friend and breaking all the promises tat i then meant, but i guess maybe not now and not anymore. people who read my blog, besides edna, you're probably my sec sch frens who are considerably close to me. i'm sorry.

seems like i've closed my heart to people/friends already. so erm. friends who used to be close to me... well, just forget me.

like i once said, a turtle should never left the waters, and tat it should crawl back and hide in its shell.

this was meant to be a long message, maybe with lots of explainary, but well, too bad. i'm too tired to continue writing, and my hand has lost the will to blog. so i seriously dunno what i'm writing.

there's so much things i wanted to sey, but well, forget it. afterall, it's not really anyone's business, so why should they care?!?!

one last point: yes i may go into isolation policy, but please tat doesnt mean you have to stop sharing your problems and the situations you are going through, becoz helping people is part of me. just becoz i'm going into isolation policy, just becoz i seem to be struggling emotionally and mentally, doesnt mean you should keep your troubles to yourself.

indeed, my heart has turned cold, i have closed all doors. but i believe the doors tat are still open are those who are going through very difficult situations, who need help, whom i feel need my help (Christ's help thorugh me.) so please, go ahead and share/update me with the problems you face. but dun expect me to really deeply share my situation with you. friends please share. sorry friends whom we often share. sorry edna for asking if you want to be acc. part. with me, but in the end i'm deciding to go iso, and not share.
i really want to help people going through life's problems. although i'm going through problems & i cant solve mine, but i can help people with theirs. it's just an integral part of me. if you (esp the few i have in mind) decide to clam up, and there aint anyone tat i can help, i'll end up being totally cut off from the world. the reason why i havent gone into isolation policy was becoz of the desire deep down to help the people i love aka friends. so how can i keep everybody out, yet be there so tat pple can find it comfortable to share with me their situation and problems, so tat i can help them.


it's 1am. no wonder i cant think. forget it then. the very main gist of the things i wanted to say iS already mentioned. so there.