Alone in the Rain

"I'm now truly convinced you've been lying to me. You've been lying to everyone. The question is.. WHY??? Why do you have to compose such a beautiful lie to everyone so that no one will bother you, so that you can have time on your own? Why must you do this? Do you know how much it hurts when people know you are lying to them? Rather, do you know how much it hurts me when I realise all these was a big fat lie? My concerns, my love towards you; asking the angels, if they exist, to protect you and keep you safe for me... just went WHAM! POOF!!

I just do not understand. Must you resort to lying to everyone? Even to your friends who are genuinely concerned for you? Even to me? I rather you ask me to stay away then to lie in such a way. Now, what am I supposed to do? Pretend nothing has happened? Act as if I was still being tricked by you? Is having you as a friend too much to ask? Maybe. Well, is being a friend to you that uncomfortable that you have to shun in such a way?

I'm hurt. I'm disappointed. I'm upset. I'm discouraged. I'm at a loss of what to do. Are you doing all these just so to gain my attention? Don't you realised that I am already really concerned for you? Don't you realised how hurting is it to those who love you to realised they have been cheated by your lies? How long are you going to keep this act up? This seemingly cat-and-mouse game is real tiring. Stop it!"

--Fern--