Alone in the Rain

dear friend(s), if only you know how much I really care about you and wish to be your friend, to be there for you and help you, to just be your friend. But I dare not ask, I dare not probe. Becoz I know you don't see me as I see you. Yet I understand, becoz not everyone were meant for each other (in terms of friendships, I'm not yet going beyond that).
I shall remain in the distance and hope that others around you, the friends you already have will be true friends for you, to you. I guess I shouldn't try so hard, or so it seems, to be like a superman-friend, wanting to be a friend (not just in name, but really a friend) to so many people. After all, I doubt I'll make the best friend ever. Though I do make somewhat a good friend (one shall not live too much in self-denial), if not I won't even have a single friend. XP
well dear friend(s), I'll leave you to your situations, to your life, to your problems and challenges. All I can and probably will just do is to pray for you and wish you joy, peace, and all the best.

Learning to let go of friends ain't easy, but I guess sometimes I have to.

Please do not get me wrong. I'm NOT saying it's your fault or anything. Nope. This is just the way things are. Some people make good friends to and for each other, others are meant to just be acquaintances, and more others just mere strangers. =)

--Fern--

12:15am 4thSep08

nopes. i'm not feeling emo, seriously! =) it's just writing out some thoughts out, which are portrayed out very well by my dear fren Fern, yet again (it's just such a wonder how we're so close to feel the same way about such similiar situations). and yes, i do have such thoughts, which people thinks is unusual coming from me, immediately thinking i am emo, which is not always true, and this round i'm Not emo-ing. (that actually shows how little people really know me becoz i hide myself so well) :)

anyways, just becoz i dun post happy/happier posts DOES NOT mean i'm 24-7 down and unhappy. nah. just been too busy to really do much blogging. truth is lots of happier posts are longer, want to post, but havent really found/made the time. yups. so who knows, when i'm free, i shall suddenly spam put all these overdue posts! XD

unhappy posts on the other hand, when you're unhappy you just cant really do anything else, so you let it go through writing.

REFLECTIVE posts also comes out easier than 'happy' posts becoz you just gotta spill/write/blurt it out somewhere before you can continue 'peacefully' to do other stuffs.

tata and good night... school studying tmr again + tuition... sianz of studying liao...
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