Guess what?!?! DURIAN FEAST FOR THE PAST TWO DAYS!!!!!!!!!! on SUNDAY and MONDAY!! haha... man! growing not fat (becoz already fat), but fatter. XP
anyways, today was GREAT! playing Captain's Ball with 10other classmates (5guys,5gals) and Mr Seq. dring PE lesson as no PE teacher, so PE period cancelled. really had fun and sweated it out! :)
1st time night studying!! supposed to be with 2 other pple, but ended up someone pang seh us, so duo, giving people the wrong impression, till later my senior came to join us. Had a couple of distractions, for me mainly- alvi & MS!!! but they came at a time where i also needed a break. So, with the tennis ball they had, we were thowing at each other at the atrium, as a form of relaxation and refreshment.
Anyway, kinda worried for a friend.
"Seeing you from afar. I may be near but you know not. I see you as a friend and wishes to help you, but you probably don't even see me as a friend, just someone who happened to be place in the same group as you. It's no wonder then that you treat me so coldly. I know you have your problems, I wish to help, but there's nothing I can do if you choose to shut off from the world, if you wish to clam up and harbour everything inside. I want to help, comfort you; i'm really worried and concern for you, and do not know what to do, especialy since talking has somehow become awkward.I want to be a friend to you, but only if you let me. Here's my offer, will you take it?"
geez. too late, too tired, cant write/type properly. cant think properly either, esp since night studying maths killed nearly all my brain cells. XD
nitie!!
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Keeps Raining Without You
Without Him, it keeps raining... everything is so dark, gloomy, cold. But it was me who pushed Him away. I'll be writing here till i've returned to His side once again. I'm 'dead'... and this blog is for my conscious ghost...
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Who? A gal who is searching for her identity; who is on the road of discovering herself and picking herself up; who wishes to be in the arms of the one whom she is pushing away Who? A gal who has lost herself when she pushed her beloved far from her. Although she needs Him and wants Him, yet she pushes Him away, ignoring Him, and thus she is left... broken and spilled out. She tries to find substitutes, but she cant and she never will, because He is too special to be replaced.
Who? A gal who although is physically conscious and is physically alive, yet is spiritually, emotionally, and in all other aspects, unconscious. She is unable to awake her consciousness, and feels like the living dead.
Who? A gal who knows that one day her consciousness will wake up, and her true self will revive, but is unsure how long it will take. It may be in a few months, or a few years, or 10years down the road (she hopes not)...Who? A gal who still has some of her true self in this 'ghost' of hers whom everyone sees, but is very different from her true self, because this is only a shell without the true inner her. That is why she has changed a lot.
Who? A gal who no one will be able to fully understand because they are unable to truly see exactly what is going on and comprehend it, and because she herself can't really understand her situation either. Her mind seems to be too complicated for anyone, including herself to 100% grasp it.
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